As you can see from the date of the last post, I have an issue with consistency. I start things and I can't seem to keep it up. I love blogging and I have certainly had this blog for sometime, I just kinda forget it exist. Kinda like my website... Well, once I figure out how to work it, I will update it.
So what really prompted this blog? Man, I have been struggling... I have really been really emotional lately. I realized a few years ago that the person we think we are and the person we really are are not one in the same. Now the funny thing is that God only reveals that to you in small doses because I think the truth of who we are would just be too overwhelming.
First, I thought I was really nice, partly because people told me I was really nice. Keisha is so not a nice person. I have nice tendencies. My latest dilemma is dealing with the fact that I am insecure. I never thought I was one of those jealous, insecure types. Ha ha, I am so one of those jealous, insecure types. I realized (and am still realizing) that I hurt and feel wounded just like everyone else. I have spent so many years denying what I really feel, internalizing my pain that I forgot what it truly meant to live.
I have been feeling just really insignificant. I have been wondering lately just what my place is in this great big world. Where do I fit in in all of this. You are left with the longing to do more and be more but not quite sure how to get there. I don't have any answers today. I just know how I feel: small and unsure in a great big world.
Adieu, till 'morrow
Keisha
